The one day I do not buy calls the market rallies. Then I sell my puts because it looks like it is going to hold. Enough is enough. RTH is way to high here. needs to go down to 50. I cannot watch the market fall anymore and not buy puts on something.

I am thinking the same thing. It is very curious how right around expiration everything tanks. If all goes according to the latest script, next week should be a downer too. Week two post exipry will start to see an uptrend that will climax during week three. At that point I will curse myself for establishing positions in week 1 that are doing poorly. Then something will happen <anything> and everything will tank again.

So the question is do I move to the South Pole to get a different perspective because the one I have now isn't working for me? Maybe turning my monitor upside down would help. It would be certainly cheaper than a trip to the South Pole. Of course maybe we could get TK to program the trading platform to do exactly the opposite of what I think I want to do.